Sharing experiences with others of the world
Well hello there WebTraveller!
So today started out pretty good got in a few miles on the bike this morning and with the intense heat a lot of us seem to be getting, I decided to not go as long and made sure I had plenty of water. I mean talk about a wet t-shirt contest!
Good Morning Web Traveller!
There is something to be said over things that each of us do for ourselves. I have had this on off relationship with a bicycle over the years, but thinking back to my previous post, about returning to my roots, getting a bicycle when I was younger meant a “source” of freedom. I mean obviously I couldn’t go far from the house, but slowly but surely like with many things in life, you start to spread your wings.. Boy, I’ll tell you now, if it was known where I went in my younger days with it, I’m sure more than a few choice words would have been sent. So this has me thinking, a dear friend (you will know who you are when you read this) in one of our recent conversations we were talking about “nurture vs nature.” To be honest for me “nurturing” was probably the most for me up until the “sex” talk, and then it seemed to taper off “some.”. Entering the teenage years, of course there’s nothing like being hormonal, trying to figure out what all this added newness to the body adds.
Continue reading “On the bike again!”Well hello there again WebTraveller!
It’s a brand new day it’s time to get up and get moving. Yeah I know motivation is not always easy, grab some coffee and do something for you today. For me? Well as thr title suggests:
I decided this morning to continue on a “rebuilding” life can sometimes tear you down. Sometimes you don’t realize it from you perspective. Don’t get me started on perspectives. However this song by Republica really resonates with me. Because I am ready to go. I said on the precious post about returning to my roots. This is what I have done. Gone into my past, lots to deal with there, allieviate myself from burdens, thoughts, actions and or what have you. Today as I left the house I went for a wonderful walk. Slowly but surely moving and burning some calories. One of my life long challenges was not always feeling “physically” ok with myself and always conscientious of my weights now from the external me I don’t think it looks that bad, the internal me however days, well the tip of the manhood is disappearing and well I wanna make sure I can see it. The last few weeks I decided to get off my ass head out for a walk or jump on the bicycle and ride a few miles. Here’s a few “views” from today’s adventure:
Sunlight, what a beautiful sight. Of course there is a song that goes along with this view, but first another view:
Now these two photos were taken together and the song “Sunlight” by DJ Sammy was on. Lyrics are a great thing.
“Sunlight, there’s nothing like your warm embrace it feels so right, shining on your sculptured face”
So true feeling the suns warm embrace.
Music has been my therapy for so many years, I never really understood the how’s and whys of it but now I understand it was something I that carried me through a lot of situations in life. The artists meaning of a song might be one thing. Having a personal realtionship with that what has been written is something else. I have been listening to many audiobooks. On many artists that I have followed over the years. What really kinda smacked me in the face is their reality, especially if and artist say, Barbra Streisand or Will Smith read their own work. To hear it and resonate with it, laugh with it, cry with it. Realizing that I am not the only person on the planet that from my internal workings “there’s problems” I have worked through a great many things. I am not mad nor upset with things that “have” happened. Today for me has been a very good day so far. Taking some time to share this with you all feels energizing.
Now I have housework to do to feel another sense of accomplishment, ill be back soon with something else that inspires me to share. I hope and it is my intention to allow my experiences in life to help someone out there who coudl be in a dark place, who may not know that is is OK to NOT be OK, it’s day by day, moment by moment, TRUST me i have been there. If you feel like someone is controlling you, trust your gut feeling, start to take back the control over yourself that you need to feel and do for your own happiness. It takes time, but it can be done. I mean look at me I’m a work in progress everyday.
Don’t ever feel alone, I hear that all to often. Ok yes physically at this moment you could be by yourself, but your not alone, it takes courage to feel pain, it’s weakness to shove it down. That old wives tale for me along with many others that aren’t true. A perspective from the outside I allowed in, i wasn’t aware of it before, now I am aware.
Take care of yourself, do something special for you today, show yourself some self love. Trust me, it’s worth it.
Until next time …. -Phil
Well hello there WebTraveller!
I understand it’s been a while since I have had something to write here, trust me there more than a few drafts in the works. However I have made a recent discovery about myself. What is that? Well feeling like I have been left behind. Like my life has been on pause or “frozen” if you will. Have to love that song by Madonna.
However I feel that yes it’s dark days and light days for me, I truly enjoy writing my experiences about what’s happened in my life in the wake of some unfortunate events. It feels good to at times get it out, get it off my chest. The extent of what I truly have absorbed over the course of my life is something even I didn’t see happen. Pieces are making themselves known little by little. My world is truly changing. I can think back at the many posts that I have done. Conversations with people and how even as little as this space is, has helped some people. That is my goal. To help others, maybe something I have lived can be related to to help someone else in some way.
So what’s with the title of the post, just as it states I decided last week that the guy I was looking at in the mirror was someone who developed after loosing my dad. What is didn’t realize until last week was the “silent” constant reminder of when I looked in the mirror I wasn’t seeing me. I was seeing him and well not to be disrespectful, that’s not what I want to see in the mirror. So I decided it was time to “return” to my roots. To bring the “me” back that I am familiar with. Shortly after losing him I decided to grow a goatee and even tho he never had that (that I can remember) I said to myself it’s to much, the subconscious was constantly being reminded and “freezing” me in time. Since shaving it off I have been feeling a lot better. To think a simple change like that. So here’s comes the “before” picture.
So as you can see the emotion was already building up because I knew it was time for a change. The shaking the began to over come me. This is something I knew I had to get the courage up to do myself. And well … are you ready for the “after” careful now, it’s a shocker!
Talk about a night and day! Simple right? Not always. I understand what it is like and how difficult somethjngs are. So there you have it “a transition” and return to my roots. Also the past 2.5 weeks I also decided to get off my ass and start moving some more. Been on my bicycle to burn some calories and going for walks. It’s hot out there gotta stay hydrated.
Now for the second part of the title. “Site transition” and this is for the folks reading this from me posting the clip on social media. I want to control what I say. For so long others had an impact (which NOW I aware of) on what was said or not said. Welp no more. Don’t think this will be an all out whatever. My goal is to put things aware that I had a different “perspective” on (man that word can get you in trouble) as I have said I have the right to my feelings, I have the right to be heard. I have the right to be human.
Wasn’t there a phrase that was said about one of the only wives tales that was said . Watch out for the quiet ones? So welcome to my life and my experiences everyone. Let’s consider this at this point a “living diary,” or as I stated on social media my “onlyfans” page.
I’ll be posting again real soon, thanks for reading and I hope someone out in the world finds a benefit at somepoint.
Until next time….. -Phil