In this next post and continuing to share about my journey from the time my father passed away until this day to write you and share my story with the world, I would like to continue sharing the books that have assisted me along with way. Really looking back on this last almost two years, it started to hit me about a year after he passed that there were things that needed to be taken care of. So let me kick this one right off.
After reading “The Four Agreements” and “the Fifth Agreement” (discussed in my previous post) I would to add a book that goes a little deeper to help someone. It is called. “Getting passed you past” by Francine Shapiro:
Up until this point there’s been a lot of information on things that have happened in the past and how the processes that I have gone through with how to get my life back after the loss of my father. However if you have read all the posts up until this point, I think you are seeing like I am how much more this has become. A lifetime of loss, lots of pain, lots of suffering, which I know I am not alone. These are events of my life and how I am choosing me, stepping forward everyday that I can. This has not been an easy process and ideally no one can help with you as an individual. Everything is different for everyone. I have had the opportunity to speak with a lot of people and some of the things they have gone through. Clearly things are different for everyone. In this next post I am hoping to show through where I have been to the guy sitting here at work on his iPad and feeling a lot more clarity on things, and being present with just hearing the buildings air conditioning fan blowing and not another sound except me typing. This is how I know I am on my way to wholeness.
This is a continuation of the previous 3 posts on “Do you believe in life after loss?” If you have read the previous posts, I would like to expand on the three weeks that I decided to take off work as part of my leave of absence and the events that happened during that time.
A little back story for you. When I was a child growing up mom was very religious. Now I will make this statement, I am not here to push anything on anyone. I merely want to help set the stage for the rest of the post, everyone in my opinion has the right to choose in whatever higher power or not for themselves to believe or not to believe. So as I was saying, Mom was very religious, and her lot in life was to spread the word of God to many people. She would always explain to me things about the Bible, the common stories that I am sure a lot of us on this beautiful planet know about in some form or another. But the key thing I remember from this time in growing up is how “God works in mysterious ways.” This is the key for this post and something Mom said quite often.
This photo was taken about 5 months before the events of these posts, what I didn’t see coming. I see happiness in this photo, but darkness was an underlying thing. It is moments like this that I have chosen to reflect upon life and where I know I can achieve this happiness again.Continue reading “Do you believe in life after loss? (Part 4)”
