Do you believe in life after loss? (Part 4)

Dear Reader,

This is a continuation of the previous 3 posts on “Do you believe in life after loss?” If you have read the previous posts, I would like to expand on the three weeks that I decided to take off work as part of my leave of absence and the events that happened during that time.

A little back story for you. When I was a child growing up mom was very religious. Now I will make this statement, I am not here to push anything on anyone. I merely want to help set the stage for the rest of the post, everyone in my opinion has the right to choose in whatever higher power or not for themselves to believe or not to believe. So as I was saying, Mom was very religious, and her lot in life was to spread the word of God to many people. She would always explain to me things about the Bible, the common stories that I am sure a lot of us on this beautiful planet know about in some form or another. But the key thing I remember from this time in growing up is how “God works in mysterious ways.” This is the key for this post and something Mom said quite often.

This photo was taken about 5 months before the events of these posts, what I didn’t see coming. I see happiness in this photo, but darkness was an underlying thing. It is moments like this that I have chosen to reflect upon life and where I know I can achieve this happiness again.
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Do you believe in life after loss? (Part 3)

Dear Reader,

This post is a continuation from the previous post “Do you believe in life after loss? (Parts 2 and 1) respectively. This is where I decided to shorten the post and let it sit in my head for a few days to begin work on the next phase of processing things, loss if you will.

What I wasn’t exactly understanding about what was going on with me was the amount of emotion, the build up that I was carrying. I mentioned in the precious post about writing a letter, you know one of those get it out of you and burn, shred, or destroy letters as you send it off to the universe as a way of making an amends. Well for me personally I have never been afraid of showing emotion, but I think this next paragraph will help one understand the level of emotion that had yet to be “let loose.” To continue the story:

There is something about water that can be calming. The day this picture was taken was a day that I had “clarity” and felt like “me”
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Do you believe in life after loss? (Part 2)

Dear reader,

This is the second part of of the previous post of “Do you believe in life after loss?” Where I asked the question and answered it with a “Yes.” From my own personal experiences with losses in life, the largest loss being the passing of my father, which has made me feel like an orphan and wondering how in the world would I make it. Mom was the first to pass and Dad 15 years later. What I do know is that for about a year after my father passed I was “ok.” That’s what I can see now looking back on all of the events that have transpired. However I now also see that I didn’t take the time I needed for myself to allow all the waves of feelings and emotions to pass out of me. There was MORE than a lot of hurt. I understand that it is life and this is a destiny for all of us at some point or another.

One of the things I have been doing to keep my own spirits up and keep working on me. A morning walk – taken August 11, 2023
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